Story: The Black Silence — Choice - Angela forgives Roland

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Contents:
  1. Location: Inside the Library
The Black Silence — Choice - Angela forgives Roland Location: Inside the Library Roland …Alright. Why don’t you hesitate a little longer, then. I’ll take your head as soon as you let your guard down… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_70" Angela (Library Director) …Roland, I’m going to let go. Someone has to break this cycle, ultimately… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_15" Angela (Library Director) After all, even I couldn’t escape the treadwheel turning for this City. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_16" Angela (Library Director) And if I have to be entrapped in more of such cycles, perpetrating deeds similar to what I’ve done… I… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_17" Angela (Library Director) I don’t think I could live that life further… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_18" Angela (Library Director) I would continue to be crushed under the everturning wheel; the only difference would be how harshly it smothers me… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_19" Angela (Library Director) Achieving freedom was meaningless in a world like this. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_20" Roland …What? After all the mess you’ve caused… You’re gonna let go? Now? Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_71" Roland Were you struck by some huge revelation or something? Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_72" Roland What about all the people who faced an unavoidable death in this damned Library… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_73" Roland All those people I’ve killed… What’ll become of them?! Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_74" Roland What was my determination and my despair for… these sacrifices I’ve made… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_75" Roland You HAVE to want something, dammit!!! Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_76" Roland You can’t break it off so easily… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_77" Roland You’ve come too far for that… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_78" Roland Someone who doesn’t even have a full-fledged desire… has no right to take so much blood and power… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_79" Angela (Library Director) I… feel their weight now, and it’s too much for me to bear… I thought this would be the last time. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_21" Angela (Library Director) I sincerely mean it… If I shut my eyes again and shed blood one last time… I thought I would be free to live as I want. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_22" Angela (Library Director) Alas, I could never be truly free as long as I was chained to the bonds of the City. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_23" Angela (Library Director) You, I, and this Library are soaked in the blood of many. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_24" Angela (Library Director) All the actions I took in pursuit of freedom only sped the treadwheel. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_25" Angela (Library Director) I convinced myself that it was an inevitable sacrifice I had to put up with, for the sake of my freedom and amends for my agony… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_26" Angela (Library Director) And once this was over… I wanted to stop taking precious things from anyone. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_27" Angela (Library Director) I know what loss and pain are, how they feel… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_28" Angela (Library Director) However, the wheel that is this City is powered by those, crushing everything in its path. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_29" Angela (Library Director) If I have to snuff out what belongs to me with my own hand in the end… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_30" Angela (Library Director) And if life requires me to spill the blood of others, or lets my own blood so that I may live on… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_31" Angela (Library Director) I’d much rather remove my grip on this goal… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_32" Angela (Library Director) At the very least, I refuse to die under the wheel. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_33" Roland …You can’t just undo what you’ve done. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_80" Roland You extort from others once, and you have to keep doing it… What were you gonna do if you lack the resolve to commit even that… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_81" Angela (Library Director) The books, the librarians, the Library… and finally, my own freedom. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_34" Angela (Library Director) I’ll let go of them all first. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_35" Angela (Library Director) I will no longer cling to them. I won’t try to keep them in my clutch anymore. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_36" Angela (Library Director) If I give it all up… then I can reverse this… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_37" Angela (Library Director) At least, those who died in the Library can be brought back. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_38" Roland …Is that the answer you chose? Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_82" Roland When you can just walk out of this place and go wherever you wanna go? When the exit from this prison is finally open? Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_83" Roland For one million years, you’ve been waiting for the day when you could exact your revenge… And still, you can make that choice? Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_84" Roland Even when the thing you’ve desperately wished for is just ahead of you? Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_85" Angela (Library Director) Yes… I made this decision by dint of my own will entirely. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_39" Angela (Library Director) This will be the first wish and the last choice I make… since I’ve become free from all restraints for the first time. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_40" Roland That still won’t make me forgive you… I’m not supposed to forgive you. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_86" Roland You can’t just let go of stuff on your own, that’s not how it works in the City… Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_87" Roland …It’s selfish to do that. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_88" Angela (Library Director) Let me ask you one last favor. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_41" Angela (Library Director) I am going to leave myself vulnerable for a short while. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_42" Angela (Library Director) Expelling everything I’ve absorbed until now won’t be a simple feat. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_43" Angela (Library Director) Could you leave me be while I do that? Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_44" Roland … Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_89" Angela (Library Director) I’m asking you as a dear friend. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_45" Angela (Library Director) …If you still consider me a friend, that is. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_46" Roland …You do know I can just kill you in the meantime instead, right? Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_90" Angela (Library Director) I won’t stop you, but don’t worry. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_47" Angela (Library Director) When I’m done, everything will go back to the way it was; I’ll disappear without a trace. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_48" Angela (Library Director) …There isn’t much time, so I’ll get started right away. Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Angela_49" Roland …How could you lay down your own goals? Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_91" Roland How can you… cut it off before anyone else? Audio: "ch7_Black_ep1_Roland_92"