Story: Daily RecordingsDay 48, No Gebura

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Daily RecordingsDay 48, No Gebura ??? (Id: 'abramNo') ……………… ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Do you remember when we still knew the warmth of the sun? ??? (Id: 'abramNo') We’ve become too cold to continue cherishing such a thing. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') No, in fact, we weren’t meant to bask in such warmth in the first place. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') You feel it too, don’t you? ??? (Id: 'abramNo') I can see you already feeling the nostalgia in the air right as you stepped into this room. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') ....... ??? (Id: 'abramNo') There is a tale of two doors. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Those two doors that never wanted to be opened, but had to be. SYSTEM: camera_filter ( filter: 'grayscale' )SYSTEM: Play SOUND: 'knock door' Carmen (Id: 'c') Hey, A, it’s me. Are you there? SYSTEM: set_anim ( anim: 'Lonely', character: 'abram' ) Carmen (Id: 'c') Can I come in? SYSTEM: camera_filter ( filter: 'none' ) ??? (Id: 'abramNo') I didn’t want to listen to what would come next. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') I wanted to pretend I wasn’t in the room… ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Because I knew what she was going to tell me. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Sometimes, her thoughts could be extremely reckless. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') It really frightened me whenever she did that… Open the first door ??? (Id: 'abramNo') I saw her eyes right after opening that door. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') She walked into your lab and started illustrating her hypothesis. Carefully, yet decidedly. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') You wanted to tell her it was preposterous, but like always, she had you persuaded. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') You had no choice but to admit it was the only way. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') What made me, us, so upset… ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Was how much it hurt to listen to her put it so calmly, as if it were none of our business. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') And how much we loathed ourselves for just having to tolerate it. ??? (Id: 'malkuthPast') We just can’t seem to get any further than this. SYSTEM: HIDE character: ??? (id: 'malkuthPast')SYSTEM: SHOW character: ??? (id: 'yesodPast') at 'center' ??? (Id: 'yesodPast') However, we will break through somehow. SYSTEM: HIDE character: ??? (id: 'yesodPast')SYSTEM: SHOW character: ??? (id: 'hodPast2') at 'center' ??? (Id: 'hodPast2') We’ve got Carmen with us after all! ??? (Id: 'chesedPastPast') Don’t worry, I think it’ll all work out. SYSTEM: HIDE character: ??? (id: 'chesedPastPast')SYSTEM: SHOW character: ??? (id: 'malkuthPast') at 'center' ??? (Id: 'malkuthPast') The biological scans show that Carmen is the fittest candidate… But, we haven’t run a precision test yet though… So if we want to find another candidate, we can always… SYSTEM: HIDE character: ??? (id: 'malkuthPast')SYSTEM: SHOW character: ??? (id: 'hodPast2') at 'center' ??? (Id: 'hodPast2') Carmen can… SYSTEM: HIDE character: ??? (id: 'hodPast2')SYSTEM: SHOW character: ??? (id: 'chesedPastPast') at 'center' ??? (Id: 'chesedPastPast') Carmen is… SYSTEM: HIDE character: ??? (id: 'chesedPastPast')SYSTEM: SHOW character: ??? (id: 'yesodPast') at 'center' ??? (Id: 'yesodPast') Carmen would… SYSTEM: HIDE character: ??? (id: 'yesodPast')SYSTEM: SHOW character: ??? (id: 'geburaPast') at 'center' ??? (Id: 'geburaPast') Carmen…. ??? (Id: 'tiphereth_aPast') You should’ve been the one to die… SYSTEM: Play BGM: 'endStory/Deep Horror Underscore' ??? (Id: 'abramNo') The research wasn’t bearing fruit, people were growing tired, yet their eyes glittered with expectation... ??? (Id: 'abramNo') She was on the edge. One more step would make her fall. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Then that day, when Enoch’s breath stopped, she finally realized… ??? (Id: 'abramNo') That her path was always in her sight. SYSTEM: HIDE character: ??? (id: 'tiphereth_aPast')SYSTEM: SHOW character: Carmen (id: 'c') at 'center' ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Just one glance below the fall… ??? (Id: 'abramNo') And she’d never lift her head again. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') She wouldn’t respond, no matter how many times I yelled. SYSTEM: Play SOUND: 'water drop' ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Only the sound of flowing water filled the air… SYSTEM: Play SOUND: 'open door' ??? (Id: 'abramNo') I just kept yanking the doorknob like I were insane. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Yet I hoped it would never open… SYSTEM: Play SOUND: 'open door' ??? (Id: 'abramNo') I hoped and prayed countless times… Open the second door ??? (Id: 'abramNo') The first thing I saw once I opened that door was a pair of closed eyes. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') She stepped into the bath herself… ??? (Id: 'abramNo') So that not a fragment of needless emotion, like guilt, would pile up on us. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') I… we saw with our eyes, so clearly. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') She was bleeding out and delirious, but still she held on to life. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') We violated her body with our own hands, and buried her underneath the ground. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') …… ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Why was she so cruel, and why did we have to become so cruel? ??? (Id: 'abramNo') We asked this question without an answer, to the toast that celebrated our success blossomed with death. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') However… ??? (Id: 'abramNo') I have found a way to redeem us, at long last… ??? (Id: 'abramNo') You have come to the right place. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') This is the room where she sleeps. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Don’t worry, she won’t wake up with this much noise. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Can you meet her again? ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Let’s do it like this. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Ask her, she who was always watching you from the beginning. Carmen (Id: 'c') ………. Carmen (Id: 'c') I have something I should confess. I actually have a much weaker heart than everyone thinks. Carmen (Id: 'c') I always say stuff like “count on me” and “just follow me” in front of everyone… Carmen (Id: 'c') But I’m never sure about the things I do. Carmen (Id: 'c') If anyone were harmed or put in trouble because of what I do… Carmen (Id: 'c') I would definitely be shaken and end up hating myself. I know that. Carmen (Id: 'c') That’s why I need to ask you for a favor. Carmen (Id: 'c') No matter what I may become, please finish what I started. Carmen (Id: 'c') We humans have weak hearts. One crack and it will easily crumble. I am no exception to this, but you… Carmen (Id: 'c') You’ll endure through it. Carmen (Id: 'c') There is only one way out, and it’ll never change. Carmen (Id: 'c') You know what I’m trying to say, right? Carmen (Id: 'c') ........ Carmen (Id: 'c') Are you unsure? Carmen (Id: 'c') I have this routine I do whenever I’m afraid of the path I have taken. Carmen (Id: 'c') It’s like... being a plant, photosynthesizing. Carmen (Id: 'c') Ease up your tension, and just close your eyes… Yes, just like that. Carmen (Id: 'c') Make yourself as comfortable as possible, so that your mind finds itself comfortable too. Carmen (Id: 'c') It tickles, no? But just wait. SYSTEM: Stop BGMSYSTEM: Play SOUND: 'Possessed_edit' Carmen (Id: 'c') Now… SYSTEM: Display CG: 'carmenBK3' Carmen (Id: 'c') Fade away without a trace… ??? (Id: 'abramNo') ............. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Yes, I was the only one. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') I was the only one who could fulfill her ideal. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') I was the only one who could finish it… ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Only me… ??? (Id: 'abramNo') However, she never told me this path of hers would be riddled with such vicious thorns and spikes... ??? (Id: 'abramNo') ….. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') This is the Bucket created from Carmen’s sacrifice. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') This bucket is the beginning and the end destination of this place. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Cogito is endlessly produced here, spewing out life and death. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') When we saw that the bath was overflowing, we thought everything was over. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') However… ??? (Id: 'abramNo') We couldn’t have been more wrong. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') She’s “alive” right now, as this. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') She saw every path we walked. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') In reality, her ideal was simply too grand in the first place, and our power too miniscule to fulfill it. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') She sacrificed everything of hers without a trace left behind, but I… ??? (Id: 'abramNo') You and I, we remember the things we’ve done to become a Wing, to stay a Wing. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') It was revolting at first. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') But you see how we acclimated to it after the first few times? ??? (Id: 'abramNo') We flawlessly realized our hideous actions just like all the other Wings. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') No, not just that. We even evolved our own unique cruelty that can’t be found in any other Wing. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') The story of how human sacrifices are required to fulfill our ideal needed to be continued. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') So we had to put on the guise of simply being manic about energy production. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Though we know the truth too well. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Were we really only pretending, while we were so indifferent towards the countless deaths? ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Probing and combing through the brain of a woman to blend into the world, to evade the Head and the Eye? ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Throwing a person into the jaws of a monster just to gain some energy? ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Reincarnating your colleagues just to make them live through the same agony again? ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Do you really think those are things any normal person would do...? ??? (Id: 'abramNo') Yet we closed up our eyes and ears, and numbed ourselves. We eventually felt nothing for what we do. ??? (Id: 'abramNo') I named myself Abram to remember your, our sins; sacrificing the innocent. SYSTEM: HIDE character: ??? (id: 'abramNo')SYSTEM: SHOW character: Abram (id: 'abram') at 'center' Abram (Id: 'abram') What did I even expect to achieve, doing all this, founding a showy corporation… I don’t even know anymore. Abram (Id: 'abram') Does it really matter at this point? Abram (Id: 'abram') No, it doesn’t. Abram (Id: 'abram') We were wrong from the start, our very existence is wrong. Abram (Id: 'abram') You and I, all that’s left for us is atonement. Tiphereth (Id: 'tipherethRobot_a') You already knew. Tiphereth (Id: 'tipherethRobot_a') You know we didn’t meaninglessly embrace this pain. Tiphereth (Id: 'tipherethRobot_a') Tiphereth knew that a long time ago. Tiphereth (Id: 'tipherethRobot_a') I guess that’s why he always walked ahead of me. Tiphereth (Id: 'tipherethRobot_a') One day, I realized that you were also looking towards somewhere with a clear vision, just like he did. Tiphereth (Id: 'tipherethRobot_a') I just didn’t want to admit that I was lagging behind. I think that’s why I was always so frustrated. Tiphereth (Id: 'tipherethRobot_a') I’m the Sephirah of the Middle Layer, head of the Central Command Team. I can’t afford to fall behind like that, now can I? Tiphereth (Id: 'tipherethRobot_a') That’s the reason why I said I’ll count on you, and hold expectation. Tiphereth (Id: 'tipherethRobot_a') Promise to show me someday… Tiphereth (Id: 'tipherethRobot_a') And show the world the fruit of our pain and labor. The Expectation for the Meaning of Existence This option can only be chosen if Tiphereth Core Suppression has been completed Abram (Id: 'abram') You’ll fall onto the ground no matter how much expectation and hope you have. Abram (Id: 'abram') You know what? Photosynthesis is for plants after all. Things that actually take sunlight. Abram (Id: 'abram') It was never for something like you and I. Abram (Id: 'abram') Don’t you know this already? We drove Carmen to death, we just saw that… .................. SYSTEM: Play BGM: 'endStory/Here Together_loop' Abram (Id: 'abram') ...... It figures you can’t give me an answer. Abram (Id: 'abram') Seems you finally accepted it. Abram (Id: 'abram') You and I, we’re failures. Abram (Id: 'abram') Look on the bright side though. Abram (Id: 'abram') Even though we’re failures, we managed to achieve at least one thing. Abram (Id: 'abram') We’ll be able to see… Abram (Id: 'abram') Carmen again like this. Abram (Id: 'abram') Although we can’t take a nap, lying in the field under the warm sun like we used to… Abram (Id: 'abram') She’s alive, she’s watching us. Abram (Id: 'abram') Don’t worry, she’ll understand. Abram (Id: 'abram') She’ll tell you that even though you couldn’t make it to the end, you did a good job getting here at least. You’ll have eternal rest with her. Abram (Id: 'abram') We should have just listened to Benjamin in the first place… Abram (Id: 'abram') My biggest regret, biggest sin, is that I didn’t stop when I should have. Abram (Id: 'abram') …… Abram (Id: 'abram') Carmen is our sun, so it doesn’t matter if we stay underground forever. E. Broadcast (Id: 'announce') Attention. Attention to all employees. We offer you our congratulations for the start of your honorable retirement. This broadcast is pre-recorded. Abram (Id: 'abram') Let us sink now, Carmen. Abram (Id: 'abram') I know you can’t hear my voice… Abram (Id: 'abram') But I don’t care. Abram (Id: 'abram') I won’t try to open any more doors… Abram (Id: 'abram') I hope that I’m with you when I open my eyes again someday. E. Broadcast (Id: 'announce') We thank you for your hard and earnest work, and have great, respectful gratitude for your efforts and loyalty… Close the door… SYSTEM: remove_filter ( filter: 'earthquake' )SYSTEM: camera_filter ( filter: 'none' ) Abram (Id: 'abram') ....... Goodnight.