Netzach โ Episode 4Location: The Library - Floor of ArtRoland(Servant)You donโt reek of alcohol today. Wussup?Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland1"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Cuz I didnโt drink. I just wanna stay sober today.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach1"Roland(Servant)Hmmโฆ Whatโs gotten into you?Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland2"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)You look pretty sad to miss out on a chance to drink.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach2"Roland(Servant)Whoops, was it that noticeable?Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland3"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Well, todayโs a special day.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach3"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)The day I died and perished from this world.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach4"Roland(Servant)Really? Whatโs the date, again?Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland4"Roland(Servant)Itโs hard to keep track of time staying here.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland5"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)The date doesnโt really matter.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach5"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Itโs this exact moment Iโm commemorating.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach6"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)I learned all about the life and death of Giovanni, my first incarnation.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach7"Roland(Servant)Thatโs what you meant, huhโฆAudio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland6"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Do you think the followers of the Church of Gears are a bunch of fools, Roland?Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach8"Roland(Servant)You mean how theyโre so desperate to find meaning in their lives, going so far as to join a cult?Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland7"Roland(Servant)Nah, I donโt think theyโre stupid. Theyโre just pitiful.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland8"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Thatโs what I think, too.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach9"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)I grew up without anyone to call parents.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach10"Roland(Servant)Same here. I was raised by my grandma, had a rough childhood.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland9"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)I was born in a Nest, and got left in an orphanage without even knowing who my parents were.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach11"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Iโd have died already if it was the Backstreets.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach12"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)I was lucky to be born in a Nest, and unlucky to have lost my parents so early.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach13"Roland(Servant)What Nest was it?Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland10"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)K Corpโs.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach14"Roland(Servant)Thatโs one of the more decent ones Iโve heard.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland11"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Yep. My life was pretty smooth. Slightly more unfortunate than others, and slightly luckier than others.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach15"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)I never really starved, or got bullied by anyone.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach16"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)It was a sheltered life, free from any outside influence.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach17"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)All I did was breathe in that shelter without meaning. I thought it was the natural thing to do.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach18"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Everyone else had the same expression as mine.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach19"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)In the school or on the streets, all the people in the Nest made the same face.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach20"Roland(Servant)Lost focus, spacing out and staring into empty places?Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland12"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Mhm. Youโre spot on. I figured life just comes and goes.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach21"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)I kept living a monotonous lifeโฆ Until I met someone with a face Iโd never seen before.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach22"Roland(Servant)Oho! Iโm guessing you met your first love?Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland13"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)โฆI suppose. It was Giovanniโs first love, to be exact.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach23"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)She was giving a passionate speech in the middle of the street, even though no one paid attention to her.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach24"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)I barely understood what she was saying, actually.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach25"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)All I could think about was how brilliant and alive a person could be.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach26"Roland(Servant)Love at first sight, eh?Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland14"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)She went on about how sheโll change this world and its people.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach27"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)And she was looking for recruits to join her cause.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach28"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Isnโt it funny? Who in the Nest would want to give up their comfortable life for research like that, really?Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach29"Roland(Servant)Yet you did.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland15"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)True. Maybe she went out into the street expecting to run into someone like Giovanni.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach30"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Her name was Carmen.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach31"Roland(Servant)Carmen, huhโฆAudio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland16"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Whenever I saw Carmen brimming with joy and pride for her cause, I felt alive too.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach32"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)I wanted to stay with her forever.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach33"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Though she probably just saw me as a good friend or colleague and nothing more.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach34"Roland(Servant)Ah, the heartrending agony of unrequited love.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland17"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)It didnโt matter to me that much. I was content with living on like that.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach35"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)ButโฆAudio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach36"Roland(Servant)Then tragedy befalls the research team, right?Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland18"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Yep. SlowlyโฆAudio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach37"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Progress of our research stagnated, and Carmen gradually lost her liveliness.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach38"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)And then, when a kid named Enoch died during an experimentโฆAudio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach39"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Itโs as if something within her snapped.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach40"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)I wanted to cheer her up somehow, but seeing Carmenโs lethargic face scared me so much. Itโs like I was erased from the world.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach41"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)And Carmen ended her own life soon after that.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach42"Roland(Servant)That sure sounds tragic. Mustโve shocked you hard.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland19"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)I could take it somewhat well. I was actually pretty calm about it.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach43"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)I thought, even the person who was more alive than anyone could meet such an early and miserable end.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach44"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)I decided to stay in the laboratory to help out with completing the research Carmen started.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach45"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Her colleagues were still there, and they didnโt lose hope just yet.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach46"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Then one day, they said we might possibly be able to save Carmen.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach47"Roland(Servant)A tempting offer, wasnโt it?Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland20"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)It was. AndโฆAudio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach48"Roland(Servant)Iโm guessing it came at a price.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland21"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)It was a risky experiment. The subject could slip into a permanent coma if it went wrong.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach49"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)No one was willing to participate, so I volunteered to be the subject.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach50"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Carmen coming back wouldโve been the ideal outcome, but even if it failed and I ended up sleeping forever, I was okay with that.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach51"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)In a world without Carmen, I lost my light anyway.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach52"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)So I can understand people taking desperate measures to find meaning in their lives, like the Church of Gears we recently saw.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach53"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)I participated in an experiment that could get me killed for a similar reason. And its result wasโฆAudio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach54"Roland(Servant)A failure, huh?Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland22"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Yep. Then I was given a second life. Woke up in Lobotomy Corp. as Netzach.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach55"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Even though I had already abandoned all attachment to life before I diedโฆAudio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach56"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)In the midst of confusion, I could hear a nostalgic voice. It told me to try and live on.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach57"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)After all those twists and turns, I finally got here. Now with the fearlessness to keep on living.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach58"Roland(Servant)Thatโs a commendable spirit, Netz.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland23"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)And now, I want to actually live, rather than just barely exist while doing nothing but breathe.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach59"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)If I get a chance to, that is.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach60"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Iโm starting to think it might actually be possible this time around.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach61"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)The world is bigger than I expected, and it has lots of hideous sides, but there certainly is beauty to be found.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach62"Roland(Servant)I guess your drinking habit was a coping mechanism to get you through each day.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland24"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)Pretty much. I do enjoy alcohol for what it is, though.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach63"Roland(Servant)Same for me.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland25"Netzach(Patron Librarian - Art)I feel like a drink now. Shall we?Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_netzach64"Roland(Servant)Iโm all for it! Cheers for today.Audio: "ch8_Netzach_ep4_roland26"
