Philip’s E.G.O — Story 1Location: Inside the LibraryPhilip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)…Gasp… Huff…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip1"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip2"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)Yet again… I…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip3"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)I thought… I could fight with them until the end this time…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip4"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)How long am I going to keep hiding behind others…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip5-01"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)…What could I have changed if I stood with them and fought along.Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip6"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)If only I had… the courage to stand up to something.Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip7"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)If I had that courage, I…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip8-03"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)… …Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip9"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)When I was told to run… I hesitated.Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip10-01"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)If I ran away leaving my master and seonbae behind, they might think of me as a coward. Maybe they actually wanted me to stay with them?Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip11-01"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)But the decision I made…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip12"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)Was to listen to them, believing that it was for their sake.Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip13-01"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)I convinced myself that I’d only be a hindrance if I stayed. There’s nothing I can do here, so I should go outside and ask others for help.Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip14-01"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)This is all for seonbae and master…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip15-01"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)That I’m doing this for others… I…… was determined to sacrifice myself for others…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip16"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)But I forfeited, telling myself that this wasn’t the right time… Told myself it’s fine because I’m still a selfless man…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip17-01"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)Said a vile and selfish person…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip18"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)I involved Wedge Office telling them this is for my master and seonbae…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip19"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)And I took their sacrifice for granted and ran away again.Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip20"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)“It’s not for myself…”Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip21"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)Trying to justify what I wanted to do…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip22"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)Endlessly parroting “For them…” “For others…” “For someone else…” For whom…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip23"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)The words I uttered to disguise my selfishness as something greater.Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip24"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip25"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)He was right, I was the most selfish and dangerous person.Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip26"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)…I don’t want to embellish my motives saying it’s for others.Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip27"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)I was doing it all for me.Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip28"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)For myself above anything else.Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip29"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)For me, who’s feeling sadder than anyone…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip30"Philip(Ex-Dawn Fixer)…Audio: "ch5_EgoPhi_ep1_Philip31"
